I Love You, Do You Love Me?

One of these days
I'll have the courage
To actually say it
Right now
As I am presently
I can't say it
I just can't
I'm afraid
So afraid
Afraid I'll ruin us
Afraid that you'll act differently
Afraid that we couldn't be friends
I know you don't love me
But I'd rather you just tell me
I'd rather not be in suspense
Though I say that
I'm still afraid
I couldn't bare it if we didn't talk
Or that if we did it'd be awkward
I know you don't feel the same
But I still need to say it
I have to
I have to!!
...but I can't
I need to
But can't
It's really less of can't
And more of won't
I won't say it to you
I'm afraid
I'll try to say it
I will
I will say it
One day
Not today
But one day
I'll buck up
I'll gather my courage
And finally say it
I love you, do you love me?