Two Lives

I live two lives
Don't you see
One I am happy
One im the real me

I laugh and I smile
During the day
But once it is dark
That fades away

I seem so fine
But really I'm not
When I'm all alone
I tie and untie the knot

People often say
Being gay is a sin
So I hide the real me
Behind paper and pen

I smile and laugh
live everything's great
But I really believe
Suicide is my fate

But I put on a mask
Because no one can know
So I cover my cuts
So they never show

So I put on a smile
Make another joke
Hold back my tears
And try not to choke