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I think of you when I watch the rain on
These dreary May nights
Out the pores of my window screen,
Dripping endlessly from my roof.
And I ache when the thunder creaks the floor boards
When I patter to the window to stand in the doorway.
The thought of you is near my eyes
As I flicker back
While putting my mind somberly to bed.
I lay on a piece of wood that my mind creates
And float away on quiet waters
Where no one can reach me.
The air is new and clean with the cold
As I wonder where you sit,
While I drench myself in Gods tears in the doorway.
Do you dream of a better day
Where you're far away from home?
The droplets pay their debts
To the blackened ground I feel beneath my
Imaginary toes
Wet with the anguish of wanting something more.
The lightening too
Pains me silently,
Releasing the blue and white into my waiting eyes.
The orange lights have all burned out,
And I'm left with you in silence so loud
That I almost grasp to feel you.
But you were never standing beside me,
As I had so wished.
I remember a day so clearly
That you stood in the pouring rain.
You let the wind softly touch you
The rain soaking through your weather brushed hair.
The guilt that pushed onto me was like nothing I'd ever felt
And the need to stand beside you was unbearable.
I never dared though.
Because I watched through the glass
Like a sad child does,
At another person so beautiful,
A beauty I could never be.
Your quiet sweet laugh still haunts me today
As you wondered at my need to stand in the rain.
It echoes through my mind like a nightmare
One I want to relive
Over and over again.
So I think of him when I watch the rain,
Quite lonely and true.
The drains of the past taking the future
As the rain continues to fall.
The beauty and sadness of him is in me
But it's the one thing I will never hold.
For it is a beauty I can never be.
And it's a beauty I will never know again.
These dreary May nights
Out the pores of my window screen,
Dripping endlessly from my roof.
And I ache when the thunder creaks the floor boards
When I patter to the window to stand in the doorway.
The thought of you is near my eyes
As I flicker back
While putting my mind somberly to bed.
I lay on a piece of wood that my mind creates
And float away on quiet waters
Where no one can reach me.
The air is new and clean with the cold
As I wonder where you sit,
While I drench myself in Gods tears in the doorway.
Do you dream of a better day
Where you're far away from home?
The droplets pay their debts
To the blackened ground I feel beneath my
Imaginary toes
Wet with the anguish of wanting something more.
The lightening too
Pains me silently,
Releasing the blue and white into my waiting eyes.
The orange lights have all burned out,
And I'm left with you in silence so loud
That I almost grasp to feel you.
But you were never standing beside me,
As I had so wished.
I remember a day so clearly
That you stood in the pouring rain.
You let the wind softly touch you
The rain soaking through your weather brushed hair.
The guilt that pushed onto me was like nothing I'd ever felt
And the need to stand beside you was unbearable.
I never dared though.
Because I watched through the glass
Like a sad child does,
At another person so beautiful,
A beauty I could never be.
Your quiet sweet laugh still haunts me today
As you wondered at my need to stand in the rain.
It echoes through my mind like a nightmare
One I want to relive
Over and over again.
So I think of him when I watch the rain,
Quite lonely and true.
The drains of the past taking the future
As the rain continues to fall.
The beauty and sadness of him is in me
But it's the one thing I will never hold.
For it is a beauty I can never be.
And it's a beauty I will never know again.