Alcoholic

i always check to make sure you're still breathing
when you shut your bloodshot eyes
and lay back your sick head.
i always prompt you to talk to me
when your eyes are boring through me,
not seeing me there in front of you
even as you tell me you love me.
when you become silent and pleading
for me to be with you,
i always make sure to keep my ear pressed to your chest,
just to make sure i can hear your
erratic, speeding
heartbeat.