My Choking Heart

I’m not in the mood for your games
Just tell me what you’re getting at
I know I’m sick
I know I’m twisted
This isn’t even funny anymore
It wasn’t funny in the first place
So why does the laughter bubble out of my throat?
It’s like a taunting gesture
“Don’t cry.”
“Quit being so melancholy.”
NO!
I want to cry why won’t you let me?
I’m so fucking sick of this
And the voices stop
They allow me to hear my choking heart
It weeps with me
I lie down
Letting it catch its breath
Stop this
Please, someone
Make it stop