Not Focus on What Others Think Is Important, Focus on What I See and Whom I Deem Important

"FOCUS!!" they will say when you want to daydream.
will you listen, or will you be true to yourself and fuck the world and remain self aware.
I want to remain in the dream because real life is too hard to cope with.
I am full of sorrow, full of hope my life is new in a sense that I have only lived two decades
I am a old soul for I carry the burden of knowing the pain of lost and grief of being unwanted and unwilling to change to be in with the real world, because I like my world so much better
All the monsters and noise and creeps, I roam freely among them because I am one
in my heart of hearts I am the beast I fear and the hero all at the same time
I am the one who needs saving and the savior too. I bleed red blue green, I bleed colors other only dare the dream of, my world is wondrous and pure evil.
I embrace the hate that others have for me in hopes that the love one has will find me, in the darkness and pull me to the light and that is my one true focus in life.
I hope that I can be that light for that person as well and not just a burden on their heart,
yet I want them to want me flaws and all because that how I love all or nothing.