Smile for Me

She's heartbreakingly beautiful,
even while I'm breaking her heart
i watch the tears spill down her face,
I hate myself more with each one.
"please," she says, "please don't leave me like this,
you promised.."
And i wish i could take it all back.
She should hate me. She should hate me.
Why the hell doesn't she hate me?
For all that i've done?
She's sobbing over the phone
like she'll never be happy again
and to hear her voice break
does the same to my heart.
And she's begging me to stay
And I'm cursing the way my voice shakes
as i say "i want to. But you're better without me."
Just friends. Just friends. Just friends.
Can that really be me, sounding so cold
to the girl who holds my heart?
"please smile. Please smile for me."

"i can't. I can't. I can't."