Love Is Truly Mesmerizing

i remember just about a year ago
i was looking through the windshield in the passenger seat of a car
it was raining outside and i zoned out
because the rain was mesmerizing even while my mind was exploding
and then i felt his eyes on me
so i turned my head and i caught him smiling
i remember looking across the center console at a boy
while he shook his head and smirked
and when i asked why
he told me i was innocent
and i was crazy
and i was loved
and then he laughed at me
he laughed because he saw the fire in my eyes
and in my heart
and he felt it on his lips when i kissed him
and when he'd look at me i'd smile too
and because his eyes were big and beautiful
and because i thought i was in love
oh, but i was wrong

now i believe that i've gotten it right
i sit behind the wheel of the car now
and i still smile when i drive in the rain
because it's still so mesmerizing
and whenever i stop the car
i manage to catch a boy who zones out while adoring the very same things
and he zones out when he's in class
because his teacher's too loud and his headphones are broken
and i spend most of the time
finding ways to sneak selfish stares at him
because he's far more mesmerizing than the rain is
i can see right through his gray eyes and into his heart
and i can feel what he feels when he stares back at me
and i laugh and i smile because i know he hides pain
in his love
and all of the idle promises that he's pretended to forget
i can see the lust in his eyes
and the veins in his arms
and i want to kiss him for the rest of my goddamn life
he's so mesmerizing and he's so innocent and caring and he's perfect
so i want him in my passenger seat forever

oh, love is truly mesmerizing
it's mesmerizing like the rain