Icy Water

The icy water licks my skin
With out thinking i dive in head first
The water consumes me
Makes everything go numb
Everything but my thoughts
My mind races
Why did i do this?
Was this a bad idea?
It doesnt matter now
Its too late
I feel my body touch the sandy bottom
But thats not where my soul is
My soul is standing on the wet sand
Looking down at my lifeless body
All the sudden i feel icy water flood my lungs
Im pulled back into my body
Everything is a blur
It happens so fast
I pull my self back to the sandy bank
Breathing quickly
Im exhausted
Im alive
But is this a good thing?
Most people would say yes
Me, im unsure
I lay back in the sand
Close my eyes
Let the water like my feet