I Don't Care

numbed by ice
black or blue
you are not here nor there
you're not anywhere
you don't exist
they don't exist.
nothingexists
if it exists
you'll kill yourself.
if you remember
too much
you'll be too gone.
psychosis at it's finest
and hypocrisy at it's best.
i don't exist
neither do you
who does
what does
if i remember a lot
will i be okay?
no, no
i blocked it all out
for a reason.
i've blocked out your face
to save myself.
♠ ♠ ♠
one of my earlier really angsty poems lol