It's All Beauty

I have never been a master of words
Never will be so I dont pretend
I can't string up majestic phrases
Like galaxies displayed in her eyes
Or simple pretty as a rose

Instead I trample around with harsh words
Cuss them out to find some meaning
Drive heavy ugly truth behind all them
Because I can
And it is simple as that
Cause if I can't invoke the power of words
I might as well use what I can
Even if I crush delicate gossamer wings
To make words ugly

I trash out when I see the world in pieces
See the varying shades between oil slick and lack of contentment
Feel the harshness of phrases and taste metallic redness in my mouth
I cry out the frustration and damn the tears
Cause I know it will never be enough
It's not enough to scream or shout
But it might be enough to speak
To say things that can be damned

It's hateful
The way these words form out
But in its own way its dazzling
It sparkles in the way that it's passion at it's finest
It's passion in letting go and stripping it bare
Leaving naked and vulnerable and oh so honest
Vitality and life in one uncontrolled moment
And beauty in all languages
Beauty in its finest because it is all ugly

It becomes like trying to punch the lights out of someone
Reeling back trying to find some kind of purchase on some inhumane power
You don't think you feel
Body lurching forward in that moment
Arms straining to get that reach
And when it collides everything shatters
Golden bits of heaven and hell altogether

I cuss and lash out with ugly words T
hat much is true and petty
It's petty that I resolve to ugly things because that's what I can reach
I can't reach something magical so I find something real
The cuss words and the hurtful truths
The tears and frustrations to choke out
And I can't hate the petty jibes or the hurtful lashing
It releases all inhibitions and pure instinct
It's reflex and it's all love love love

Love in all the sense of the word
Because you are not ugly unless you loved something
Both for right and wrong reasons and all selfishness
Scarring heart, mind, and soul
It's love in the way you strike to protect
Recoil from the evil you dealt out
Disbelief in the power of what you're capable of
It's hateful and angry
Love at its fiercest
Till nothingness

It's all Beauty