Mad Longing

You walk around everyday,
Thinking everything's fine and okay.
You talk to me like you always do
Unknowing of the hell you out me through.
You have no idea of what you do to me,
Have no idea of the beauty I see.
Your silky hair framing that beautiful face,
Those plump, pink lips that I've been dying to taste.
Your laugh, your eyes, your compassion, your smile.
They all fill my head with your image for a while.
Temptation courses through me whenever I see you
And you have no idea!
You'll never know about this mad longing I have for you.
A longing that doesn't make any sense for me to have,
Especially for it to be for you.
I already have someone to make my heart stutter,
To stir up the butterflies in my stomach.
I shouldn't want that from you too.
I shouldn't, but I do.
I keep wishing for this longing to go away,
So things don't get awkward and we can always stay friends,
But it never does
And I'm stuck here staring at you from across the room
Trying to understand why you, why now?
This longing tears me up inside,
Making it hard to focus on the one I should be loving,
The one I should be longing for,
The one I should be wanting to taste,
The one I should be wanting to touch and savor,
The one that shouldn't be you.
I drop little hints so maybe you could figure it out on your own,
But you don't seem to be picking up on them,
Which to be honest if really sad
Because I'm not the most subtle person when it comes to hints.
I don't know what I'm going to do with you
Or how I'm going to get rid of this mad longing,
So I guess I'll just have to take it
One day at a time.