Broken

I feel like my souls broken like everything is my fault I feel like shit.
I try to put a smile on my face but my heart stops me I can’t pretend to be happy I can’t pretend to be ok anymore….I’m not ok?
I’m not fine I fucking feel like I’m in a glass box, tied down and screaming for help!
But of course there is no one around to hear and just when I think someone’s there to help, they look and walk away.
All I want is a true genuine hug and support.
I feel people trying to love me but for some reason I can’t, im not allowed to accept it or give it back...What’s wrong?
I think my souls broken.
I would kill for a chance not to feel like this.