If Only You Knew

If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe you wouldn't have yelled
If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe you wouldn't have screamed
maybe you wouldn't have called me retarded
maybe you wouldn't have been so mean
maybe you wouldn't have shoved me
maybe you wouldn't have "joked"
because you were the only one laughing
and i was the one that choked

If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe you wouldn't have gossipped
you spread the rumors
and said the lies
and i didnt know how to stop it
If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe you wouldn't have made fun of my weight
told me how i was like a tooth pick
and made me cut and scrape

If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe you wouldn't have scolded me
or said mean things
just to get a rise
and change the way i see things

If only you knew
what i was going through
maybe I wouldn't be holding these pills in my hand
maybe i would't be buried in sand
maybe you wouldnt have to see me in a stone
maybe i would alive again....
If you only knew