Ocean Letter

Your letter is cold in my hand
I’m lost somewhere by the shoreline
As I watch the tired waves collapse against the sand
Thunder rumbles in the distance as I am soaked in the ocean brine

I’m relieved to be away from the brightness I’ve grown to hate
Still remembering the sky on the night I lost everything
I fantasize about memories I’m unable to create
I forget to sing

Unable to read the words you sent
Wishing I could hear it from your lips
None will ever understand what your words meant
The wind catches the letter in my hand as my finger slips

It dances in the wind and into the ocean deep
I can only think of the night my life fell
My eyes don’t remember sleep
Hands trembling, it becomes hard to breathe well

The tide soaks my feet as it tumbles upon the sand
There wasn’t enough strength to carry on
Just like myself, the one I cannot stand
A silly, troubled pawn

I fear losing sight of you
Opposed to losing sight of what’s right
My mind is as careless as the ocean blue
I imagine words I will never write

Waves rise and crash onto the coast
The ocean storm quickens its pace
I no longer try to forget what I missed the most
I lost the dreams I had unselfishly attempted to efface.

I want to hear from you, even if it’s just your troubled sighs
I can’t quell my anger and I begin to seethe
Rain cascades from above, and I shout to the skies,
“Why do you breathe?”