One Chance to Be Me

Today for a second I waited,
A pause I needed to take.
Held tight were my eyes to the pillow,
Delayed was the motion to wake.

A moment was needed to listen,
To the silence that filled the new day.
A moment to be more decisive,
About the self I want to portray.

Sometimes I wish I was pretty,
Sometimes I wish I was more.
Sometimes I wish I could vanish,
Through a promising wide open door.

Sometimes I wish I was needed,
Sometimes I wish it was true.
Sometimes I wish I could realize,
All the things I needed to do.

But wishes of maybe are countless,
And the hours don't disagree.
Time makes a habit of slipping away,
And there's only one chance to be me.

I'll always know when I'm tired,
And I'll always know each mistake.
I'll always know when I'm happy,
I'll always know when I'm fake.

I'll never regret that which happens,
I'll never deny a good friend.
I'll never harm my own heart,
I'll be there for me in the end.