Darkest Fears

Open your eyes to your darkest fears
let the night consume you
the deepest secrets rip you apart
your evil, devious side shows

people run and scream
they all try to avoid you
you smirk as they cringe and back away
you laugh at the weaker ones

the good in you tries to tighten its grip
but you're the one who pushes away
the evil takes over
you forget the guilt

you turn on the one who was always there
you stab them in the back
and reveal their deepest darkest secrets
but they still care and try to help

you yell and you fight
you're bringing them fright
they try to comfort you
but your too far gone.

they go to get help
help comes and you fight
you tear down with words
when violence is no longer works

you would never let them know you're afraid too
you cry when the night comes
offering nightmares rather than dreams
you let it build up and then you scream

they don't know your broken
they don't know why
all they know is you try to hide
and try not to break down and cry

you lie alone and night
and wonder why you ever tried
when nothing else works
you decide on suicide

but you cant go yet
there is something undone
you tell them your sorry
but your still to far gone

the minutes and seconds count
and the times about to come
but behold a light
even in my darkest night

i smile for the first time in a while
i decided against my past
one last try, but it wont be my last
this time i wont cry

now we're in the present day
and i can say i choose to stay
i let the pain and fear deteriorate
and welcome in the light that was brought on by a knight

help called and i went
i finally found that friend
the one who made me happy
and pulled me from my hell bound heart

they remained true form the start
when i was hopeless they gave me hope
they stopped and fixed what was broke
they bound our heart, mind, and soul

to this day i will thank them
each and everyday
i place my heart in their hand
and that is where it will stay

i know this poem may be a little much
and it's a weird way to put my life in words
at first i was confused and lost
i hurt many people

but you helped. you were the thing i desperately needed
you helped me love and respect myself
and while i leaned to love my self, i started loving you
now i'm in love with you, and that's how it will always remain!