Blackened Memories

Memory is a painful thing
A seeping darkness
With a painful sting
Flashbacks flooding like a storm
Breaking my flimsy spine
Contorting my weakened form

I want to forgive,
but can never forget
So what really, is my reason to live?
My brain just loves to remind me
of all my pasts pains
Growing and sprouting like a ramshackle tree

Who would I be, if it wasn't for him?
My past, my present, my future, too
He made my life bright but also dim
I want to forgive but can never forget
My mind's a mess, all I can do is fret
Please, oh why won't you let me forget?