Suicidal Thoughts of a Teenager

Wish there was some way
i could just stop
stop being strong
stop being forgotten
stop being used
isn't there anyway i could get rid of the pain
Stop the tears that fall each night
as i cry myself to sleep
stop putting up with shit
i wish i could give in to that voice
telling me to do it
to end my life
things would be so much easier
everyone would just carry on
no one really cares about me
everything ive done ive struggled my way through
no one cared to ask how i was
or if i needed help but i had to be there for them
i cant take this pain
i just want someone to love me
to make me feel beautiful
i want someone to know me
to help me
make me feel safe
protect me
even just hold me close and tell me everything will be alright
even if it was a lie and i knew it
i dont care i just want him
that one guy to be here
holding me as i cried until i fell asleep
but that could never happen
my heart is broken
my family is dying
my future is messed up
the reputation ive strived for is tarnished
and still the blood pours down my arms
because im in pain
im tired
im crying
and im too cowardly to end my life now