I WANT TO BE… BUT!

I WANT TO BE… BUT!

I want to be more honest, caring and loving to people in my life, but some are not worthy my efforts,
I want to live a porpose driven life, but sometimes I feel ma life has no porpose,
I want to make things that make me important to the society, but I don’t know what these things are,
I want to be more healthy, but the healthy measures burdens me,
I want to have a charming girlfriend, but it seems, all are charming for their selfish intention,
I want to be an important person, but I have not discovered my importance in other people’s life,
I want to be more devorted to ma creator, but i feel it’s a big task for me,
I want go to heaven, but I am afraid to die and leave this precious world
I think this is not how am supposed to be, but I believe its what I am today
I know i have power to change my future but I don’t know where to begin from!