Distant

i can tune someone out
better than anyone i know -
know how to nod my head and agree
so you think i'm paying attention
when i'm really not.

i know that nobody really
looks me in my ugly eyes
and gauges that i'm not here,
or anywhere,
and it's where i want to be.

maybe some people realize
"why are you so quiet today?"
but they'll take any answer
that i want to give,
so i don't worry too much.

i don't know if i can love you
if you don't notice my eyes roaming,
looking away from you,
content to find a way out
or to be urged back in.