Haunting Screams

they haunt me
the dreams inside my head
they scream at me
and want me dead

'you are nothing
cant you see
nobody wants you
so why dont you leave'

i try to stay strong,
i try to hold tight
but it wont last for long
because i know the are right

i never had the need to live
i am just a waste of space
i'm nothing but a pitiful sin
and a great disgrace

i hurt who come near
that's why i must go
you need to believe me
there's something you dont know

they both died
because of me
i told them to do it
i gave them my screams

and that is why
i am tourtured still
the gun was really in my hands
i made their blood spill

so i will accept
the life of pain
misery and regret
make sure things will not change

they leave me in a rut
and bury me in thoughts
of just wanting out
and giving me cuts

battle wounds, that's what they are
a battle that i lost
but a least i can say
i did for a good cause