Coming Out

Slender alabaster digits clung tightly to mine
Palms pressed together in a deathly grip
Sweat formed at the crevices of our flesh
Forcing me to shift my palm in her forced hold
The smell of freshly cleaned floors sat at the back of my tongue
Twisting the contents of my gut
The taste of nerves resonated in my mouth becoming rancid
I swallowed to fight away the retched anxiety
People swam in front of us
, eyes averted to us in scrutinizing stares
We don’t belong
I looked to my lover pleading
Her pale stare didn’t hold the world
But in her watery hues I found acceptance
Among the cold blue speckles
It didn’t make the world more accepting
Or suddenly cure my fears
But in a world that’s lonely
She held the promise of always being there
♠ ♠ ♠
I did this a year ago in school.