The Leper

I wish I were dead
But I really don't
Waking up every morning
Living like a ghost
Antisocial impulses
Being told to follow your heart
Who am I to blame
When it leads me back into the dark
To be comfortable alone
Inside my own skin
I should have tried that
Before I let anyone in
Normal interactions
What seems like no big deal
I have to plan closely
So I don't come off weird
It's not so easy
To just 'get a life'
When no part of you
Even wants to try