I Won't Tell You, but I Miss You Dear Friend

tell me please
what did i do?
all i ever did was be there for you
bit i didnt know friendship went only one way
to you it's a game
and i was foolish enough to play
but how could i have known?
you made me promise not to leave you alone
i was there for you until the very end
but you left me behind when i needed a friend
you left me alone with eyes full of tears
you left me alone to fight all my fears
you said you left because i was too depressing
now that you're gone i find myself confessing
i truly miss you
but you only dragged me down
no longer will i let you push me around
but am i lying to myself?
i honestly don't know
if you came to me now
I'd fall for your trick
and the fact that it's true makes me sick
i don't want to live without my dear friend
but it doesn't seem like this fight will end.