In My Mind This Is Saying Goodbye
Sitting in the middle of the room
three people sleeping
here I know
If I make a sound
They will wake
So I sit quietly and cry
emotionally by myself
wanting to die
I can't will myself to do it
Lord knows I have tried
I sit silently crying
Hating myself
because I can't fight
this feeling
3 AM
I should be asleep
but depression overwhelms me
I can't make a sound
in the dark...
even in the darkness
they would see my tears
so I don't make a sound
I don't want them to fear
of the things I might do
In my mind
This is saying goodbye
Even if they can't hear the words
they know I do love them
One quick slip
and it will all end
one quick flip
and it will be done with
This is all because
I truly hate myself.
So I sit quietly and cry
three other people in this room
not wanting to wake them
but still wanting to die
three people sleeping
here I know
If I make a sound
They will wake
So I sit quietly and cry
emotionally by myself
wanting to die
I can't will myself to do it
Lord knows I have tried
I sit silently crying
Hating myself
because I can't fight
this feeling
3 AM
I should be asleep
but depression overwhelms me
I can't make a sound
in the dark...
even in the darkness
they would see my tears
so I don't make a sound
I don't want them to fear
of the things I might do
In my mind
This is saying goodbye
Even if they can't hear the words
they know I do love them
One quick slip
and it will all end
one quick flip
and it will be done with
This is all because
I truly hate myself.
So I sit quietly and cry
three other people in this room
not wanting to wake them
but still wanting to die