In My Mind This Is Saying Goodbye

Sitting in the middle of the room
three people sleeping
here I know
If I make a sound
They will wake

So I sit quietly and cry
emotionally by myself
wanting to die

I can't will myself to do it
Lord knows I have tried

I sit silently crying
Hating myself
because I can't fight
this feeling

3 AM
I should be asleep
but depression overwhelms me

I can't make a sound
in the dark...
even in the darkness
they would see my tears
so I don't make a sound

I don't want them to fear
of the things I might do

In my mind
This is saying goodbye
Even if they can't hear the words
they know I do love them

One quick slip
and it will all end

one quick flip
and it will be done with

This is all because
I truly hate myself.

So I sit quietly and cry
three other people in this room
not wanting to wake them
but still wanting to die