Craving the Inevitable and Falling Apart

crossing paths with you
in an empty hallway
where i never expected to see you again
makes me shiver.
speaking words that i don't mean
and singing songs when i can't sing
shakes me to the bone.

if you stroke my face
from my cheekbone to my jaw,
i might melt away.

i swore to you
i would keep myself together.
and i swore at you
when you made me want to fall apart.
there's a fire burning inside of me
that's slowly going out.

every time i see you,
i feel like my whole body
will explode.