Doubt

Its not so much “how could I live without you”
Its more like “I couldn’t live without you”
I can honestly say I had never felt like this,
And though I’m young I know I couldn’t love anyone more than you,
I’ve had more laughs with you more than anyone else,
I’ve felt the flutter in my heart whenever you looked into my eyes,
You understand just who I am and you except all my flaws,
I’ve never thought about a person more than I’ve thought about you,
Your smile lingers in my mind and it keeps me up for hours,
Your laugh resonates through my ears even after you’re long gone,
Every second I spend with you I cherish,
I’ve loved you for so many years,
But its just now that I’ve realized just how much I treasure you…
I love the jokes, I love endless phone calls, I love the way you see the world,
I just love you..
No matter where life takes us you’ll always be in my heart,
Throughout time and space love lingers its felt through the people we’ve met, and the people we have yet to meet,
When you’re sick… I have an overwhelming sence to drive the miles it takes to get to you,
When you’re in the hospital I can do nothing but to pray and try to make you smile,
I cant help but want to know more about you,
The mere thought about us takes me out of reality.. I feel my heart pounding, my eyes going blurry and my cheeks heating up…
However till the day I can become the person you love I’ll wait..
Even if it never happens I’ll hold onto that petite red thread that bonded us together.
I wish to move forward with you,
Yet I cant help but to stand still and watch your back walk away,
Because doubt is the thing that chains me to stay where I am…
For if I take one step with you I’m afraid you’ll turn and push me back into place.