I'm Tired

I’m tired of breathing
Of living
Of sitting here questioning everything
Of the blood rushing through my veins
I’m tired of my heart beating and my life never changing

I will sleep when I die
But until then I am a zombie endlessly walking
Trying to pass as a human
Trying to seem normal and likeable
Trying to be who everyone “knows” me to be
But I’m tired and one day I will fall and no longer be alive
I hope to god it is sooner than later
Because there is only so long I can pretend