Afraid

This feeling of fright
What could it be?
I don't understand
It grows inside of me.

I've always been played
Corrupted and shook
Always the same...
Tossed aside like a book.

I'm afraid to lose you
Though I know I won't
Play around with my heart
I know you don't.

Though I can't shake this
It's agonizing and frightening
Strikes me frequently
Like a bolt of lightning.

Could it be I'm just not used to trust?
Though I trust you with my life
And so much more
I trust you enough, I'd make you my wife.

I love you so much
But I am afraid
I am afraid
If a mistake is made.

It burns in my throat and in my heart
Am I overprotective?
Am I just jealous?
There's something wrong...I'm so defective.