Neither Light nor Dark

This feeling is better than any
drug or drink induced I've ever known.
If only it was what I was searching for.
I never thought a person could
have the ability to make me
this disoriented, dizzy, and fuzzy.
I don't know which direction
I'm supposed to be walking to.
They used to say go towards the light
but none of its really light
but its not really dark either.
If I just knew what everyone
wants me to do
then maybe I could make a choice.