The Debt for Dreaming

You were the best part about me,
And now you took all the good away
No energy to reminisce 
Or dream of better days.

The hardest part for me is waking up,
It's like losing you all over again.
And nothing I do could ever be enough
To make it last. All good things will come to an end.

I can't go back to certain places 
Without tasting you like bile.
I no longer look for your eyes in a crowd,
I'm past bittersweet denial.

The world is out of my reach,
I guess I'm still in shock.
If only I could stay with you,
If I could just turn back the clock.

There is no amount of pills I could take, 
To make things be okay,
I feel you in my fingertips,
Whiskey can't wash that away.

You're only a ghost that haunts my mind,
If I let you take over would you be kind?

I'd stay away if it meant saving you
If only I saw, if only I knew.

Goodbye, honey, until my next dream
It looks like I'm leaving but things are not as they seem
I'll stay with you in my memories.
So I promise never to forget if you promise never to leave.