Honestly.
Honestly.
Sometimes I don't know what to think.
Up is down,
right is left,
and vice versa.
What i've come to expect of the world is nothing but chaos,
with a fake face,
and what seems to me feels like real friends,
to live with as time flows on.
If you've seen my past works, ive said things about goodness,
and about the cracks in my very being,
what controls the flow of life,
surrounding my very existance it seems,
and it is held captivated,
on the balance.
Lets drop the poetic act of self-serving,
the way im wording it to make me sound,
poetic you might say,
or obvious,
pick your poison,.
The truth is,
life has been on track,
i seemingly dropped my what seemed like depressive state,
even got myself a girlfriend.
Its all coming back though,
worse than before,
and never in a worse possible time,
a situation straight from hell.
I imagine myself dying,
and if i werent such a coward,
id make it happen,
except now i have her to care for,
and i suppose others too.
I just am lost,
unsure,
unguided on my path through,
and seeking a light for the un-adjusted eyes of my being.
Sometimes I don't know what to think.
Up is down,
right is left,
and vice versa.
What i've come to expect of the world is nothing but chaos,
with a fake face,
and what seems to me feels like real friends,
to live with as time flows on.
If you've seen my past works, ive said things about goodness,
and about the cracks in my very being,
what controls the flow of life,
surrounding my very existance it seems,
and it is held captivated,
on the balance.
Lets drop the poetic act of self-serving,
the way im wording it to make me sound,
poetic you might say,
or obvious,
pick your poison,.
The truth is,
life has been on track,
i seemingly dropped my what seemed like depressive state,
even got myself a girlfriend.
Its all coming back though,
worse than before,
and never in a worse possible time,
a situation straight from hell.
I imagine myself dying,
and if i werent such a coward,
id make it happen,
except now i have her to care for,
and i suppose others too.
I just am lost,
unsure,
unguided on my path through,
and seeking a light for the un-adjusted eyes of my being.
♠ ♠ ♠
This is me recently, i felt like pouring out, in a semi-chaotic/poetic form, seeking the truth, and help if i can find it, in those who i think might have an idea or two. Feel free to say anything, judgement or honest opinions is what ive come seeking. If not, i hope you enjoyed the poem of chaos.I dont expect anyone to care, i just thought id light a make-shift beacon using this seeing if i couldnt make a friend or two.