A Day with a Friend

It seems to me, friend, you lament my presence.
Our once good standings seem to have diminished.

Today we went on a walk through the park.
I saw the trees, families and the care-frees.
You spent your time on the Internet, using your phone.

Then we went to the zoo. There you ignored me too.
I watched the monkeys play and the lions lounge.
You called your friends to arrange a get-together.

Next we went to see a movie together. At the cinema.
I enjoyed the movie greatly, it was pretty hilarious.
You looked bored, didn't laugh, and played with your phone.

Lastly we went to a restaurant for supper at last.
I had some steak, a soup, carrots and some wine.
You texted your mom and ordered a salad.

Today I had fun with you. Even if you didn't.
I called you yesterday to get together once more.
You grudgingly agreed, and I was content.

I wanted to tell you, friend, that you are my best.
You are my only friend, and the last person in my life.
My family is gone, I live alone. I wanted to see you.

I wanted to tell you how I've been lately, but you were too busy.
I'm not well, old friend. My doctor said I have depression.
I expected as much, considering I have very little to be happy for.

I wanted to tell you my cat died the other day.
I cried for hours, as he was all I had left. Besides you.
A day or two passed. I was lonelier than ever.

So I called you to see if you could fit me into your day.
Luckily, today was your day off of work, and you had no plans!

So we went to the park, the zoo, the cinema, and a restaurant.
Now we are here, outside the eatery, sitting on this bench.

Not long ago, at the restaurant, you may remember.
I excused myself to the restroom. I wrote this note.

Then, I fished my anti-depressants out of my pocket.
And I swallowed them all. With water, of course.

I wanted to spend my last day with you, my friend.
Maybe I would have held on a bit longer after today.
It didn't really matter anyway, I forgot the future.
I focused on today. Today was great.

I understand you are very busy.
It was my mistake to drag you along though, you didn't have fun.

I hope knowing that I'm not a burden on you anymore helps.
You seemed tense, very stressed. I don't want that for you.

Today was gr