The Fourth

I didn't know I had a fourth till you were gone.
They said you left when I was one.
And when I was five you left again this time forever.
You left this world with pills and antifreeze.
They went though @#!*% because of you.
The man I believed to be God cried because of you.
I hate you for what you did.
But I'm sad that I'll never know you.
You are the fourth I'll never meet.