Nine

You left me alone
You finally did
But i will always think
Of what we had

The farther i get
The harder i try
The more i wonder
What if And why

Why did you do it
Why did you choose me
What happened to us
and Could we ever be

Be happy in the world
A world like this
Where pain is the word
and Misory exists

Could we have been more
Could we have been iT
Could i be with you now
oR was it all just a trick

A trick that pulled me in
and told me the lies
and made me believe
That you were the gem in my eyes

The eyes that cried at night
The eyes that Cried so much
The eyes that hurt all day
And the eyes I would touch

The touch of a mistake against my skin
The touch of your Hand against my skin
The touch of a joke a trick and a scam
And i Think back would i could i fall for it again

I was played and it hurt and i hurt
and yet nine years after meeting
i still think and write all about her
So it is as if she was never planning on leaving

she made her mark against my heart
and Took a piece every time she would leave
Now im writing alone listening to japanese
Thinking how could It be.. why would i believe

believe that you could be mine
Believe that i Could be yours
Believe that this was the life for me
When it was the life you forced

Forced me into a corner
forced me into a Habbit
Forced me into an addiciton
All fell apart befor i could grab it

I lost control of who i was
And i gave in to dark temptations
But i came out stronger
and thats all that i needed to know.