If Only You Knew

If only you knew
all the things I want to say to you or even do
Thank god I am someone who never follows through
with how I feel for you
I crawl into that dark place inside
and continue to allow you to push me to the side
Why bother to break down these walls
you were never worth one stumble; one fall
refusing to pick up the phone when I called
It's good for you though
finding my love is like finding a diamond in a field of snow
it's about the journey to my heart
willing to reach me and refusing to never depart
from me, because you are willing to see something you can keep
something that's anything but cheap
If only you knew the things I wanted to say but never ever said
all those nights I wish I could linger close to you on your bed
The things I wish I could do to you
If only you knew