Alcoholics Anonymous

I am in love with you is something I have said many times in the past.
I thought if I repeated this to myself over and over again.
I would start to believe it too.

I thought if I allowed myself to follow in your transparent foosteps.
It would somehow bring us closer.
It would bring me closer to understanding you.

I was always told that I was going to grow up and be just like you.
It"s funny because apart of me wanted and craved for that.

And so I drank and drank till my insides screamed for divine intervention.
I was really lost and I didn' know where to turn.
I just wanted my daddy.

I just wanted you to give a damn about me.
But we both know how this story ends dont we.
At some point in my life, I'm going to have to let this fantasy of you coming to rescue me go.

It hurts to know that your never coming back, that you dont want me.
But somehow I'll find the strength to move on.

And if someday are paths cross in life; I'll pass by you as if you never existed.