Why would I love again?

Maybe if I loved again
Then I would live again
But why would I
Want to do any of that again

It was painful the first time.
It isn’t even meant to be perfect.
It is what it is and is it worth it?
Could I really do this?

I want something I haven’t had.
Am I greedy?
I want it so bad.
Am I needy?

The title it has is love.
But it’s more of a contract of self-destruction.
It doesn’t need a signature.
Wouldn’t need both.
You’ve just gotta want it.
And want it unreasonably.
Hearts in a kamikaze.
If I’m going down I’m bringing you with me.
Or at least I’ll be trying.

Love!
It's gotta be worth it.
To feel like this without it.
It has to be something worth while.
But it is a monster.
A Human deficiency
We are better off without it
But just as bad with it.