A Reluctant Goodbye.

A single tear slides down my face

As you tell me you're leaving

You hold me in your arms and cry

I listen to your breathing

I can't believe it's ending now

After all that we've endured

I feel my heart begin to break

As our separation is ensured.

You tell me that you love me

But I can't listen to that again

It hurts too much, it cuts too deep

It means much more than it did then.

I turn around and walk away

I ignore your plaintive pleading

I can't go through another end

Another person leaving.

My shoulders sag, my eyes are filled

With borrowed, secondhand tears

You run up behind me, take my hand

And open me back up to my fears

What if I can't let go of you again?

What if my heart breaks once more?

Your warm lips cover mine and oh, I'm lost

With no worries as I had before.

But wait! Why're you going? You can't leave me now!

I feel myself break down and cry

Because this time I know that there's no turning back

This time, it's really goodbye.

You disappear from sight and I bow my head

I've lost you, my love, my only!

I turn around and start walking again

And I'm lost, sad and so lonely.

How can I do this, tell me how can I live??

Without you here by my side

I know that I'll never see you again

You've left me alone, stripped of pride.

It's now ten years after that one fateful day

I'm alone and I haven't moved on.

But I'm beginning to forgive you for leaving me here

Because I know, in my heart, you weren't gone.