No More

Everything has a solution
They said
Pens scribbling away
Handing me a little bottle
So I nod my head
Sharp intakes of breath

Days went on
Life in my sad head once more
No more pounding pressure
No thinking at all

All highs end
I'm over my head
I need more
I need to feel happy

So she gave me more
Lifting some more weight off my back
No more daydreaming
No more endless seas of color
No more imagination
No more

Clocks tick around and around
The sound of a bell in my ears
For once
I heard every word said
Not one misplaced thought
No more

Doses increased
High in those early hours
Followed by a familiar crashing tidal wave

Mirrors taunting me
Focus on myself
Every little flaw
It's the end of the world

Maybe I miss it
My own little world
That this one pill
Prevents me from seeing

Teacher's words slipped again
As I trembled in fear
Whispers in my head
Just leave me alone

Goodbye focus
I wish I could have had more time
More time with you

Just a blur
Everything has melted
Everyone is the enemy
Too boring
Too out of it
No more

So where's my solution
No more dreaming when I shut my eyes
No more bright autumn skies
No more thoughts dancing
No more girl I uses to be

No more
♠ ♠ ♠
I'm glad that I finally wrote a poem about this. No, I'm not talking about drugs. Well yes, a drug, but not the kind you're probably thinking of. I'm talking about my ADHD medication that has really messed me up and I'm relieved to be off of it finally. It took away my dreams and my sanity. It gave me panic attacks and constant fear. Life's a bitch