Toxicity

i breathe in
and there’s a sharp freezing
coldness
at the back of my throat
as though i’d just eaten a
whole tin of
mints and then
taken a deep breath

i breathe in and
it feels like
you’ve taken all the air
from my lungs
and replaced it with
your own

except your air is toxic
and i’m choking on it
and you’re standing there

watching me saying i’m
sorry i’m sorry i didn’t
know this would happen

and
i’m choking and i’m
dying
and the corners of my vision
are turning
black

and you’re still saying sorry

(why are you saying sorry?)