Reoccurences

there’s a recurring dream
i have
where i’m lying on the
floor
and there’s blood everywhere

and you’re crouching over me
scooping the blood up
in your hands and
trying to pour it back into

me
but it’s futile and the
blood just keeps coming
and coming and you

keep trying to pour it
back and i want
to say
stop it stop it but my
voice isn’t working

it’s catching in
my throat hitching
with my breath and
all that comes out is
a huff of air

and now you’re sobbing
and blood trickles
through your fingers
(why is there so much
blood?)