The Girl With Many Names

Shattered glass falls
Onto the tiled floor
I just didn't want to
Feel pain anymore

I stand in the middle
Of that pile of glass
I was the biggest loser
In my class

They called me names
And broke me until I was done
I didn't break my mirror
Just for fun

I was hurt having been called
Fat, a whore, ugly, and an emo slut
Why do you think that
I always cut

I'm tired of being bullied
Tired of feeling pain
Tired of being picked on
I'm so full of disdain

I'm tired of letting everyone down
Tired of giving into tears
Tired of living this life
This miserable life full of fears

I just want to be happy
To be me without a name
Because the names I am given
Are like tools in their horrible game

I don't want to be known
As the girl who got pregnant from rape
Because it's broken me
And like my mirror I lost my shape

Now this child
Is going to be the death of me
After she's born
They will see

How their words hurt
Like glass across the skin
How they punish me
For being a product of sin

I can't do this much longer
I can't survive this way
But for my child
I'm waiting till her birthday

Maybe then everyone will be happy
Maybe then they will see
How their names they gave
Actually did kill me

The list of names
Might never end
Whore. Emo. Fat.
Even from my best friend

They say I wanted it
They say I asked for the attack
By dressing like them
I wanted to be beaten blue and black

I never fit in before
And now that's more so
Because I'm the girl with many names
Whose tummy is beginning to show

I want the names to go away
I want them to disappear
Even my own, Annalise
I don't want to hear

Every day I get a new name
Every day I cry
I just can't wait for her birthday
So I can finally die

I am the girl
With many names
Just pick one
And join their games

You won't be different
If you make me hurt like they do
But if you don't call me a name
They'll call you a freak too