When I Saw You and Him

Pain.
Unfiltered
And pure
Pain.
It spreads throughout my whole body.
It starts in my head.
Over thinking causes it
As well as the disturbing things
It processes from my eyes.
From my head,
It reaches my limbs.
It freezes them in their spot,
Making escape impossible.
As my mind catches up to what I'm seeing,
The pain slowly rips through my heart.
This pain is the slowest.
This pain is the most agonizing.
For a minute, it feels like my heart stopped.
I can't feel it anymore.
I should be panicking.
I can't feel it beating.
It feels like my heart was ripped from my chest.
But I can't panic,
I can't move,
I can't do anything but watch
As my heart is squeezed into pieces
And thrown all over
With no chance of being put together.