Am I Broken?

I've been home twelve days
I had not touched my suitcase
Until just now
The second I opened it
Your scent hit me like a truck
And I threw up
I didn't mean to
It just came out
After I recovered and came back
I braced myself because
This time I knew what to expect
When I flipped it open
The first thing I saw made me smile
It was that purple nightie
I put on to surprise you after work
But ended up having to go outside in
Around strangers
Because my car wouldn't start
I pressed it to my face
Closed my eyes
Took a breath
And I screamed
I didn't mean to
It just came out
I'm not sure how long I sat there
Screaming
But when I recovered
I closed the suitcase
Zipped up all the memories
Put them back in the corner of the room
And I cried
I didn't mean to
It just came out
I'm still crying
It hurts missing you
I think I'm broken
I'm sorry