Paralyzed

I scream out to the barren and quiet night
Yet its lights stay off and unmoved

I scream louder.

Nothing.

No movement nor twitch from the outer world
I stay inside and think.

To me my screams cut through glass and my ears bleed from the noise yet…they cannot hear anything at all.

What is this delusion?
This nightmare of silence
I can't make a noise
So I lay down

Big mistake.

I cannot move.

My muscles tense and fail
My ears start ringing and soon they collapse.

I can't move
I can't scream
I can't feel

I panic and wonder
Am I dead?
Or alive?
What am I?
Where am I?

How can you know whether you're dead or alive when you can't even tell when you're awake or asleep?

I summon all my strength and try to move
To open my eyes.
But I can't
Limitations strike me like thunder.

I can't move
I can't scream
I can't feel
I can't tell when or what I am, much less where.

I scream inside myself
Nothing changes
I reach for help
Its not there.
It never is.