Good Versus Bad

i woke up this morning with events fresh but feelings erased.
in my brain i replayed the details and watched you happen again (and again) but in different versions reinvented

did i crumble at your taste?
did you sleep as well as i had?

or

were you not as pretty up close, your lips abnormally wet? did i drown in your spit while your 6'5" height made you unreachable, fracturing my neck in attempt?
did you sleep as little as i had?

(how is it possible i remember you so good but so bad?)