Please Help Me

Will you help me?
Please help me.
You see, I fake it so well,
and I can't even tell
what I'm doing,
what I mean.
or if this is worth
this hell.

Will you help me?
Please help me.
I feel my world tilt from parallel
and then with it I myself fell.
Is standing up a choice?
An option?
Is it worth it?
I can't tell.