My Anxiety

Have you ever been so full of anxiety
Your heart literally hurts
And you can't catch your breath
It's like madness
You can't think straight
You just want to breathe
To not worry anymore
But you can't
You think about it over and over
Until it's burned into your being
You know it forwards and backwards
But you don't know it at all
You wish the pain away
The throbbing in your head to stop
But you know it won't
Anxiety kills you
Literally
It breaks you down to tears
And fears alike
Because it is a monster
Inside
You wish you could hide
But you can't
Your stuck here
Drowning on the surface
Of something
That only you can feel
You're alone in this
No one can cure you
They try to give you pills
But nothing works
You just keep praying everyday
That the pain will go away
But it never leaves
And your chest barely heaves
You struggle for air
Because in your mind
You're claustrophobic
In your own mind
You can't fucking control!
It tears you apart
Limb by limb
Thought by thought
You gave all that you got
To try to stop the flow
Of thoughts through your mind
But there is nothing you can find
To save you
Because that's all that you want
No shiny new car
No house on a lake
And people say it's all fake
You're just overreacting
Just get over it
They say
Well I hope there comes a day
When you feel what I feel
Because trust me
This shit is real
And it hurts
You cry and cry
You don't know why
You just want to die.
Maybe you will
Maybe that's how you stop the pain
It's driving me insane
It's my last resort
I'm so contorted in my thoughts
I'm so broken and drawn down
I scream and frown
But no one sees
It's inside of me
This madness
Makes me hollow and alone
And when I need the help
There's no one on the phone
Because no one understands
My anxiety